From that time we have wrestled with this question. Why us? We have done our best to follow God, why did He take our baby?
People have unhelpfully told us that is was because we were not following God “the right way”! Man that hurt! We searched our hearts over those comments! Couldn’t make sense of them! As far as we knew we were following God the way He wanted us to.
I have been thinking recently that God sends his rain on the just and the unjust … and he also allows the storms and the tornados too!!
This week, as I was looking through books at a second hand shop I came across “Where is God when it Hurts” by Philip Yancey. He has some insight into why bad things happen and why it’s NOT because we have sinned and God is punishing us.
Over the past couple of months, when I’ve finally got back into reading my Bible and slowly working our way out of depression, I have taken great comfort from the book of Job. Here we have a scene in heaven where the devil approaches God and God asks the devil if he’d thought about Job! The devil replied that Job was a righteous man only because God had a hedge of protection around him and he couldn’t touch him! So God removed the hedge of protection and allowed the devil to attack Job. In one day Job went from being a rich man to having NOTHING!“The old testament is replete with reward punishment type of thinking and presents life in terms of this principle: “do good get rewarded, do bad get punished”. However, I do not believe the principle applies in precisely the same way today….”“There is a huge difference between the sufferings most of us encounter, and the suffering as punishment described in the old testament. There, punishment follows repeated warnings against specific behaviour. To be effective, in fact, punishment requires a clear tie to behaviour…. the people of Israel knew why they were being punished; the prophets had warned them in excruciating detail…“Biblical examples of suffering as punishment tend to fit a pattern, the pain comes after much warning and no one sits around afterward asking, “why?” They know very well why they are suffering. Does that pattern resemble what happens to most us today? Do we get a direct revelation from God warning us of a coming catastrophe? Does personal suffering come packaged with a clear explanation from God?”
Had Job sinned? Was God punishing Job? NO! Job had not sinned and it was not punishment! It was showing that Job was righteous not just because God was protecting him, but Job was righteous by choice. When he lost everything, he did not curse God! He remained righteous! After it was all over God blessed Job more than before!
I admit we’ve been angry with God over the death our our little girl. I admit that I have blamed God! I admit I’m not as righteous as Job! I have asked God’s forgiveness for this and feel a peace about it.
I don’t believe God took our baby! I don’t believe we had sinned! I don’t believe it was God punishing us! As I said in a previous post God Absolved our guilt and took our punishment when he died on the cross! Amen!!
|When there was only one set of footprints, |
it was then that I carried you.